I'm feeling so sad today, I saw on Facebook that a friend, Christina Newman, whom I have followed on Youtube and facebook for years died today following a long, hard battle with triple negative breast cancer. She had the most amazing videos and I felt as though I really knew her because she'd done and been through so many of the same things as I have. Her old videos about her eating disorder and raw foods kept me inspired for many a day...then she got cancer and she posted videos every week to document her story and it just broke my heart to see how much she suffered and she was so brave and strong and kept fighting like you wouldn't believe. She deserved to live and now she's really gone. I just couldn't help crying today and feeling so sad, thinking back on her life, that could have been me, and really it could be anybody, and if I could learn anything from her it would be to never take anything for granted, and take care of your health while you can. Cleanse your liver and your arteries while you can and learn to love yourself first and foremost because you just never know what could happen. Make the right choices right now, one day at a time, because you can't see into the future and you never will know what could have happened if you hadn't. I am just getting this really strong message right now along with bawling my eyes out, and I feel like such a mess.
Anyway, I have been feeling a really strong message lately to do a juice cleanse, and I decided I want to aim for a 10 day reboot. This time I am doing a combination of my own juices and some of Joe Cross's type juices, and Jason Vale's. I was really getting this message strongly last week during my meditations. I decided to start this weekend and it is now Sunday and today was my first day. It is also day 20 of the 30 day raw challenge I was trying to do! Lol so that means this would be a nice way to finish that off, by juicing for 10 days.
In eating disorder terms...I struggled for the past 3 days. I felt like I had to cram in as much food as possible for some reason and I just had a really hard time and I overate on all 3 days. Just felt like as soon as I made 1 concession to it, all hell broke loose and I had to stuff myself. I am feeling a lot of blocked emotions and am really in need of some mental clarity and juicing will be so amazing for me. Ugh, I feel such a mess about everything. :(
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