Well here I go again with a report that I have not been doing well, had a perfectly horrible week in terms of stress and also food choices, really horrible in fact. I am not going to dwell on it because I know that I am the only person who can change these things, and I in fact, CAN change them and I know I can! Also I'm not going to dwell on it because I am not going to give any more of my precious energy to the bulimia and I know that (1) engaging in eating disorder behaviour generates a tremendous amount of negativity and then (2) focusing on the negativity allows it to become a powerful vortex and I refuse to get sucked into it again.
So I had a bad week, it's time to let go of that and move on. yes I feel like crap right now physically but I feel great mentally because I KNOW I have the power to change all this.
I have been feeling way too scattered recently (say, the past month), mostly around work-related things. I feel a big change coming and instead of opening myself to good energy and good things that are to come, I am resisting and turning to food to block it all because I am afraid. But i don't need to be afraid.
Anyway, by coincidence (but I know it's not really coincidence!) , I found a 30 day raw food challenge online, and it's hosted by an amazing woman who used to suffer eating disorders and healed herself by eating raw, which is exactly what I want to do, and so finding the challenge I thought was perfect timing and I am going for it. It started Oct. 6 but I am starting today, and she has videos every day on Youtube which is perfect and I can watch every day to keep myself on track.
It is Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada, and this challenge is my gift to myself, as a way of showing gratitude (thanks) to my wonderful body that puts up with everything I throw into it and always tries its best to keep me healthy and deserves my respect.
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