I am really working on letting go of attachments and judgements about myself around food. I really have been not respecting or loving myself and it's become an ingrained habit of so many years of having eating disorders that I didn't even realize what I was doing. I always thought the holy grail of eating would be the 100% raw vegan way, but not realizing that it is really love that is the true healer, and putting love for yourself first is a challenge.
I am also finding it scary to surrender all beliefs about food but I know that once I do this I will find peace with my food. That is my goal, to be truly healthy and happy and to have peace with my food. I can't express how exhausting it is to be constantly fighting a battle about whether or not it is ok to eat a certain food, and if not must I punish myself, it just gets so stressful and to set that aside would free up an incredible amount of energy I think!
I had a wonderful run this morning and a decent gym workout as well, and now my body is craving more exercise, so tomorrow there will be more of it. Yay!
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