Wow, it's been ages since I last posted anything. I haven't done horribly since then, but I haven't done terrific either. I 've been off track with my workouts for about 3 weeks now and definitely feel it, and also I fucked up my food intake pretty badly this weekend. This is the first time in months that I actually ate dairy and gluten-free bread, and I have the bloated upset tummy to prove it. Ugh. Also it is PMS time so that equals bloating and emotional-ness. Yuck.
Anyway, I've struggled each week for the last 3 to be on plan with my eating and exercise, and sadly ended up binging by wednesday each week. I feel like an absolute mess mentally today, and bigtime sugar withdrawal headache and head fog too. Ugh. I hate feeling this way.
Anyway long story short, I am in this group on Facebook for the Nutritarian, eat to live by Dr Fuhrman lifestyle, and they were just starting a 100 day challenge, so I decided to join in and take it 1 day at a time and see if I can break my addictions around food. Only thing is they go pretty heavy on the beans, and beans really don't agree with me, so I am still doing the challenge but going to focus on mostly vegetables, and will eat my legumes in the form of green peas, edamame, and sprouted lentils, as those work very well for me. Also I am doing juicing regularly, something Dr Fuhrman discourages, but I firmly believe in my juicing and also in doing mostly raw, so that is my main focus. Still within the ETL framework, but something that I know will work well for me, or at least I hope it to.
So today was a pretty rough day. I am so hard on myself and beat myself up soooo bad and basically I feel really down on myself because I never seem to get past day 5 or 6 of eating super healthy and then either binge or eat junk. Then go into a downward spiral and start feeling depressed and I know it's mainly sugar that makes me feel unbalanced this way and that I don't need to feel this way, I just need to nourish myself and starve out the toxic cravings so that they subside and then I'll be fine. I just need to get through the next week what with PMS and all and going through the withdrawal and yeah, just take it 1 day at a time. I just don't have much faith in myself at this point. But what the hell, I am nothing if not persistent. I figure if I try often enough and enough things and ways, I can work my way to my goal of physical and mental stability, peace with my food, and the body of my dreams. Anything is possible, but everything is impossible the minute you give up. So I am not giving up.
Doctor Furman is against juicing? I have his book Eat to Live and he does think you need to eat the whole food but to be against juicing is strange! If you can't eat legumes, try sprouting them. I have a large jar and get some navy beans or whatever kind you want and it is really easy to sprout them and you can add the sprouts to your salads and still get your beans!!
ReplyDeleteYeah I thought it was strange too, I guess he's not really horribly against it, but he does not recommend it and it's not on his "plan". Yes I have that book also. And yes I totally agree sprouting is the only way I can tolerate them, unless I eat like 2 tablespoons at a time. (my digestive system is kind of messed up) That's why I do my own sprouted lentils and mung, never tried navy or any larger beans though, good idea, might give it a go and pick some up next shopping trip! Thanks for the idea!
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