Tuesday, 25 February 2014
I'm in a funk...
I have to admit I'm really in a funk right now. I got my period on the weekend and was in a lot of pain Sunday and Monday, so I missed my workout on Monday, and gave into that "fukitol" feeling and decided to eat instead of do what is right for myself...so consequently it is now Tuesday and I feel awful and really down on myself and angry at myself for not doing what I need to do to pull myself out and smarten up, even though I know exactly what to do and that it would only take a day or 2 of eating right and I`d feel awesome again. Argh! I hate when I get like this! I had to come on here and write even though nobody is probably reading this, because writing about it might just help. I need this to be the last day of this fukitol slump...:(
Wednesday, 19 February 2014
Things that work for me, and things that don't!
I am having a successful week, so far! I didn't have any juice Sunday or Monday, didn't want any, but I had some last night and the rest this morning. It seems like juice is fantastic for me but my body also wants other stuff. I've been having raw veggies, oatmeal, bananas, pears, salads, cooked veggies and chicken. And my most favouritest, Renee's salad dressing with it. Omg that is such good stuff! I have not yet tried one I didn't like, and there is no msg and no artificial flavours. Although they do have soya oil, sugar and salt in them, which gets the thumbs down from me for sure, but at least the sugar and salt are a little further down the ingredient list than the crappy commercial dressings, and I honestly have never found another dressing I really love. So until I do, Renee's is it.
I weighed myself on Tuesday and found I was down 4 lbs from Feb. 1st, which given that I had a quite off-track week with some really bloat-promoting foods, is still 4 lbs in 2 1/2 wks which is fantastic in my opinion. (I have a body that just does not lose weight quickly). Gym routine is on track, and I've gotten back into running in the mornings 3 or 4 times a week.
I'm extremely broke, having been in school 5 months and now only working part time while I search for an employer to start my apprenticeship, but you know what, I have this feeling that with the construction season going into its busy time soon, that it won't be for long, and I have this wonderful feeling of being glad I had the courage to go back to school and that now doors are open for me for something I really want to do! And that my new opportunity is just around the corner. So I am enjoying my freedom for now even if it means being broke. I was seriously burnt out after 5 months of straight school and work every day, and seriously in need of some gym time! I am now finally below the weight I was before school started and finally starting to feel like myself again.
Anyway, now to get to the topic of today's post. Things that work for me are veggies, proteins, not very much fat, and limited amounts of non-refined carbs. Also not eating after supper. If I just stick to tea in the evening I get a much better sleep and feel much more energetic the next day, and I lose weight more easily. Another thing that works is a balance of juice and the above healthy foods.
Things that don't work for me are basically refined carbs and salt. The big ones. Then there's the fact that I am allergic to gluten so it's probably the worst thing I could eat. But even gluten free carbs I find bloat and puff me up and make me gain weight easily. Cooked oil is another one, unless it's like when I make baked veggies with a bit of olive oil or something like that. But anything with too much cooked fat really seems to make my liver struggle because I feel sluggish and tired and heavy.
Just thought I'd list these things in case it might help someone else, and also to remind myself when I forget!
I weighed myself on Tuesday and found I was down 4 lbs from Feb. 1st, which given that I had a quite off-track week with some really bloat-promoting foods, is still 4 lbs in 2 1/2 wks which is fantastic in my opinion. (I have a body that just does not lose weight quickly). Gym routine is on track, and I've gotten back into running in the mornings 3 or 4 times a week.
I'm extremely broke, having been in school 5 months and now only working part time while I search for an employer to start my apprenticeship, but you know what, I have this feeling that with the construction season going into its busy time soon, that it won't be for long, and I have this wonderful feeling of being glad I had the courage to go back to school and that now doors are open for me for something I really want to do! And that my new opportunity is just around the corner. So I am enjoying my freedom for now even if it means being broke. I was seriously burnt out after 5 months of straight school and work every day, and seriously in need of some gym time! I am now finally below the weight I was before school started and finally starting to feel like myself again.
Anyway, now to get to the topic of today's post. Things that work for me are veggies, proteins, not very much fat, and limited amounts of non-refined carbs. Also not eating after supper. If I just stick to tea in the evening I get a much better sleep and feel much more energetic the next day, and I lose weight more easily. Another thing that works is a balance of juice and the above healthy foods.
Things that don't work for me are basically refined carbs and salt. The big ones. Then there's the fact that I am allergic to gluten so it's probably the worst thing I could eat. But even gluten free carbs I find bloat and puff me up and make me gain weight easily. Cooked oil is another one, unless it's like when I make baked veggies with a bit of olive oil or something like that. But anything with too much cooked fat really seems to make my liver struggle because I feel sluggish and tired and heavy.
Just thought I'd list these things in case it might help someone else, and also to remind myself when I forget!
Sunday, 16 February 2014
Update for the week
My last post was exactly a week ago and I have had an epic fail this past week! To start with, I was feeling almost manic-ly hungry on my juice cleanse once I got to day 16, which was Monday. I now know from experience that it was my body telling me it needed more nutrition and different nutrients. I've been in that mode before after juice fasting and it is the reason I'd always go back to eating crap and just say fukitol I screwed up, I might as well throw in the towel and keep screwing up. It was not an emotional reason at all, it was purely a physical reaction that my body has whenever I "restrict" anything. Anyways, it's a really crappy situation to be in because when I get to feeling like that, it's like, anything goes, and I'm just looking for something to stuff in my mouth in the hopes of relieving the "starving animal" feeling. It's awful.
Anyways, Monday was a very dark, snowy, heavy cloudy day which is something that really affects me and makes me want to stay inside and not go to the gym. Anyway, I became aware of the fact that I felt like I was starving when I made my morning juice and just about gagged looking at it. (and, this is the girl who LOVES juices and veggies!!) So I made the decision to try and eat 1 meal a day along with juicing, as I spoke about Sunday, and having decided that, I set out to the store with the intention of finding some good veggies maybe on sale and figuring out what to eat. Not really a good idea to go to the store without a plan, and while feeling ravenously hungry and sick of juice.
When I got to the store I wandered around and eventually decided I was craving pistachios, edamame, and hummus with rice cakes. Not really on my plan, but I went with the craving. Came home and watched a movie and ate. I couldn't seem to appease my hunger and cooked up an entire bundle of broccoli and threw that in as well for good measure. It was a frightening feeling to eat to the point of stuffing yourself and yet still feeling starved. It was way too much food for my stomach and I of course had a major stomachache all day.
Then Tuesday, wed, and Thurs I tried each day to get back on track, started off with juice, but kept feeling starving and each day ate a lot of cooked veggies, peas and edamame but still felt awful. Wed and Thurs I even went so far as to eat chocolate, gluten free bread with olive oil and tomato, and carrot cake. Yeah. Not very good. I immediately felt bloated and sick.
Friday I managed to stick to tuna and sweet potato but it was still too much food and I was still bloated. Saturday (yesterday) I made a big juice and took it to work and sipped it all day along with LOTS of water ; I had the feeling I was forgetting to drink enough water as well. Then had a banana, and then came home and wondered what to make for supper. I found a recipe for kale chips and never having made them before, got really excited and rushed into the kitchen and made up my first batch, and omg they were fab!!!! I mean sooo delicious. I ate the entire bunch and that was supper and I felt perfectly satisfied and just had a cup of tea before bed, and as I was eating them I started to feel satisfied and nourished, like it was something my body had been asking for and needed. I got a wonderful sleep, woke up refreshed this morning and went for a run in the snow, and feel like I have survived the crisis. Most of the bloating from the sugar and crap is gone down and I am back in control and on track and not craving the junk anymore. I'm so happy.
So what can I learn from this? Sometimes I overextend myself and I need to remember that this control is always here and I can always find it for myself, it is not elusive or doesn't need to be as long as I listen to my body and give it what it needs instead of trying to think I know better.
I sincerely wish it hadn't taken me a whole week to get back on track, but what's done is done and at least I am back feeling good mentally again and minimal damage was done, as my clothes are back to feeling as loose as they were on day 15. So I guess I'm on day 15 again although on day 22, if that makes sense. I'm going to go on from here and not give up and get right back to the gym and not waste anymore time because life is too short to feel fat. Lol.
Anyways, Monday was a very dark, snowy, heavy cloudy day which is something that really affects me and makes me want to stay inside and not go to the gym. Anyway, I became aware of the fact that I felt like I was starving when I made my morning juice and just about gagged looking at it. (and, this is the girl who LOVES juices and veggies!!) So I made the decision to try and eat 1 meal a day along with juicing, as I spoke about Sunday, and having decided that, I set out to the store with the intention of finding some good veggies maybe on sale and figuring out what to eat. Not really a good idea to go to the store without a plan, and while feeling ravenously hungry and sick of juice.
When I got to the store I wandered around and eventually decided I was craving pistachios, edamame, and hummus with rice cakes. Not really on my plan, but I went with the craving. Came home and watched a movie and ate. I couldn't seem to appease my hunger and cooked up an entire bundle of broccoli and threw that in as well for good measure. It was a frightening feeling to eat to the point of stuffing yourself and yet still feeling starved. It was way too much food for my stomach and I of course had a major stomachache all day.
Then Tuesday, wed, and Thurs I tried each day to get back on track, started off with juice, but kept feeling starving and each day ate a lot of cooked veggies, peas and edamame but still felt awful. Wed and Thurs I even went so far as to eat chocolate, gluten free bread with olive oil and tomato, and carrot cake. Yeah. Not very good. I immediately felt bloated and sick.
Friday I managed to stick to tuna and sweet potato but it was still too much food and I was still bloated. Saturday (yesterday) I made a big juice and took it to work and sipped it all day along with LOTS of water ; I had the feeling I was forgetting to drink enough water as well. Then had a banana, and then came home and wondered what to make for supper. I found a recipe for kale chips and never having made them before, got really excited and rushed into the kitchen and made up my first batch, and omg they were fab!!!! I mean sooo delicious. I ate the entire bunch and that was supper and I felt perfectly satisfied and just had a cup of tea before bed, and as I was eating them I started to feel satisfied and nourished, like it was something my body had been asking for and needed. I got a wonderful sleep, woke up refreshed this morning and went for a run in the snow, and feel like I have survived the crisis. Most of the bloating from the sugar and crap is gone down and I am back in control and on track and not craving the junk anymore. I'm so happy.
So what can I learn from this? Sometimes I overextend myself and I need to remember that this control is always here and I can always find it for myself, it is not elusive or doesn't need to be as long as I listen to my body and give it what it needs instead of trying to think I know better.
I sincerely wish it hadn't taken me a whole week to get back on track, but what's done is done and at least I am back feeling good mentally again and minimal damage was done, as my clothes are back to feeling as loose as they were on day 15. So I guess I'm on day 15 again although on day 22, if that makes sense. I'm going to go on from here and not give up and get right back to the gym and not waste anymore time because life is too short to feel fat. Lol.
Sunday, 9 February 2014
It's soooo cold! Brrr!
It's day 15 today of my own detox plan that I worked out for myself. I've had juices, smoothies, bananas, and soup broths. I'm feeling much better, have definitely lost some weight as my clothes are looser, and feel much happier with my eating choices. I'm back to my workouts at the gym plus running as well, and feeling like I'm finally on the path to getting stronger and leaner and lighter.
I'm finding myself craving veggies now and I think that starting today I may do juices/smoothies all day and include a salad and veggie meal for supper. My plan this time was most importantly, to listen to my body, and secondly, to complete 35 days of just pure veggie type unprocessed foods and no added condiments. A reset and a detox. I've never done anything like this before, because before I'd be all strict and force myself to just juice and then I'd crash and burn and fall right back into junk before I knew it. This time, I'm being smart and knowing myself, knowing my obsessive-compulsive, addictive, all-or-nothing personality, have set what I believe are better guidelines for myself.
It took me awhile to get to that point because it seems to be common belief in the juicing and rebooting community that there is only 1 way to reboot and that is strictly juice-only. Yet there is not only 1 right way to do something, in fact I've come to believe that there are as many ways to get healthy and lose weight as there are people in this world; that everyone has to find their own way and that no 1 way works best for everyone. As soon as i accepted that, I realized there was a lot I could do to find my own path.
Anyway, it is bitterly cold here in Canada right now, -30 this morning and -33 windchill, and it's been pretty much -30 to -20 all week, supposed to warm up next week, thank goodness! I've been going running anyway, just bundling myself right up until I look like a frost-covered mummy out there!
But I am happy to be done school and am on the hunt for a company to apprentice me in the electrical trade. So far I am only working part time in my warehousing job, but it's really nice to be done school for sure.
I'm finding myself craving veggies now and I think that starting today I may do juices/smoothies all day and include a salad and veggie meal for supper. My plan this time was most importantly, to listen to my body, and secondly, to complete 35 days of just pure veggie type unprocessed foods and no added condiments. A reset and a detox. I've never done anything like this before, because before I'd be all strict and force myself to just juice and then I'd crash and burn and fall right back into junk before I knew it. This time, I'm being smart and knowing myself, knowing my obsessive-compulsive, addictive, all-or-nothing personality, have set what I believe are better guidelines for myself.
It took me awhile to get to that point because it seems to be common belief in the juicing and rebooting community that there is only 1 way to reboot and that is strictly juice-only. Yet there is not only 1 right way to do something, in fact I've come to believe that there are as many ways to get healthy and lose weight as there are people in this world; that everyone has to find their own way and that no 1 way works best for everyone. As soon as i accepted that, I realized there was a lot I could do to find my own path.
Anyway, it is bitterly cold here in Canada right now, -30 this morning and -33 windchill, and it's been pretty much -30 to -20 all week, supposed to warm up next week, thank goodness! I've been going running anyway, just bundling myself right up until I look like a frost-covered mummy out there!
But I am happy to be done school and am on the hunt for a company to apprentice me in the electrical trade. So far I am only working part time in my warehousing job, but it's really nice to be done school for sure.
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