Getting the ball rolling

Weigh in on  Friday was decent, I'm down 11 lbs since Nov. 3. But I definitely need to tweak my diet. Overall I did well though, I went back to the gym and got myself back into my routine there. I went to Power class ( I hadn't been there to work out regularly since 2 weeks into August; the last time I fell off the wagon and into binge eating. then I went once in October, then fell right off again. It's been a really bad few weeks). Anyway, that was Wed Nov 6, and I had a real meltdown when a lady in the class asked me if it was my first time. I mumbled, "no" and managed to hold it together til I got to my car and then I cried and cried. I know, I know, I take things too personally...it was enough of a sadness to me to find a lot of my strength gone and have to lift much lighter weights, but then to add injury to injury...sigh. I guess I must have looked really bad. But, no point wallowing in pity, i figured. let that be a lesson to not neglect my diet and exercise again. Sigh. It's been a hard few weeks trying to deal with returning to school etc. But enough excuses.
Anyway, I went that Friday as well and again last week for 2 of the 3 classes. I always feel out of place there,and it's even worse when I've fallen off the wagon and not been there for a month or two. However, I have a new perspective now, and can't let these things get to me. I have to do what's right for myself, one day at a time, and learn how to deal with life without falling into binges on bad food that take the life right out of me. I am not going to live that way anymore. And I am not going to do the juice fasting route anymore either. I have been there done that and gained the weight back again. I've come to the conclusion that I have to choose to honour myself every day and just eat right and exercise every day and not to let myself down anymore.
I have to go grocery shopping today, but for now I am enjoying a green juice and some tea. I am exhausted from work and school.